Saved For The Demon

I attended a support group meeting for epileptics last night. Skeptic at first..not sure anyone else could relate to the hallucinations, delusions and demons of my past or the ensuing hassles of neuro-health care that present troubles daily..just trying to get through a full turn of the clock.

I found myself in a group of 10 [...]

I feel my skin tingling. My fingers tap the table..antsy. I catch myself pacing, no music, no chores..lost in thought. Ruminating thoughts that have looped through my brain waves more than  a hundred  times over the past 3 years.    The next book.

The 10-day donkey ride through Hell. I know the story beginning to [...]

Growing up and living the way the demon required lead me into decisions and to a life style that is now as fresh as avocado green shag carpet..wall to wall, ’70′s style.

My life must grow and evolve.  Even scarier, I must grow and evolve.  I want positive change as much as I ever wanted a [...]

late April early afternoon.

We think..therefore we get confused.  The mind plays  tricks with perception, sometimes with every thought. We; rationalize, demonize, terrorize,  moralize,  sanctify and continually judge the world as it is presented to us. Then, we compare our worlds to the life we really want..and lose that

Blaming innocent friends for the evil illusions of [...]

April 18th Sunday noon

The sun rises late in my life.  The rosy fingers of dawn have fully opened and the bright yellow light of day shows a crystal blue sky, hours before I rise..  I’ve survived another night.

We are a small population, us lone walkers.  We face the world with  our demons, alone, as the [...]

Journal entry  November 2004

I was restless the other night. The 3rd or4th time I went back to bed it was nearly dawn. I lay down and with my whole heart I asked the great universe to  “please give me a clear answer about this book  I want to write.  Should I write it or will [...]

Journal entry may 2007

..And suddenly – out of nowhere..BAM!   I’m hit by a truck. Consciously unconscious – I lay on the floor – shut down,  paralyzed- in the cleaning aisle of a discount store.   Alone.  I wake up to pain and confusion. No one has stopped to see if I’m OK– (It must [...]

Yesterday was a typical cold and damp December day here in mid-Ohio.  The 28 degree temperature was a warm up from recent days so I layered up my clothing (from long-johns to cozy gloves and a hat) and took my hound dog to the park.

I felt strong and hardy walking through the woods and the [...]

The ancient Greeks believed that anyone struck with a seizure was being taken over by a God and given special knowledge.  Yeah, those were the days…Heroes and monsters. A  God for the sea and one for the sun.  Anything unexplainable was caused by a meddling God or Goddess.

The ancient Greeks were my kind of people; [...]